I thought I knew myself...

I was diagnosed with Cerebral Palsy and Hydrocephalus shortly after birth.

My first shunt was put in when I was a couple weeks old, and I've had 7 revisions since.

As I grew up, I learned bits and pieces of what my disability meant and how it manifested itself.

I knew more surgeries were likely.

I had an idea of what to look out for.

But what I didn't anticipate was another diagnosis.

No. Scratch that. Not one diagnosis.

Two. In less than 48 hours.

During the week of the attack on the Capitol.

What on Earth?

I won't lie. It hasn't been easy, dealing with the emotions that came with the news of what happened in DC, only to find out I have mild to moderate sleep apnea and irritable bowel syndrome, all at once.

It means lifestyle changes. Self care. Making myself a priority, while learning more about what is going on in the US.

My country.

The country I love.

The country my husband serves.

And I don't want to because all of this puts weight on my mental health.

But I have to. Somehow. I need to know what's going on. But...I'm going to do so in a way that honors my needs.

How?

1. I'll read an article or two, but that's it.

2. I will journal, so that my thoughts, questions, and concerns get out on paper.

3. I will ask my questions of those who understand and respect my boundaries regarding the discussion (when enough is enough, etc.)

4. I will divert my attention as needed, and turn it to those around me. I will make the impact when, where, and how I can.

5. I will rest.

How are you practicing self care as you sort through your thoughts and feelings about current events?